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詩選|不被自己愛著的痛苦

不被自己愛著的痛苦
沒有被自己看見和聽見的痛苦
在我們的細胞中迴盪著。
 
有些人將痛苦存放在心裡,
有些人將痛苦儲存在骨中,肉中,靈魂中,
還有些人
在全身都埋藏著痛苦的記憶。
 
這是一種希望以我們本來面目,
被自己的心認識,
被自己的心看見的渴望。
 
當這個渴望沒有被滿足時,
會讓骨頭碎裂,
會刺激皮膚,
會使心麻木,
還會讓靈魂悲傷。
 
我們的身體不喜歡承受
這種毀滅性的能量,
這種能量
其實是我們對於自己的仇恨。
 
幸運的是,
需要的解藥就在自己的內在。
 
在扭曲的言語、
傷害性的信念底下,
 
祂等待被觸摸,
被感受,
重燃成長的動力,
選擇生命,
選擇綻放。
 
祂永恆存在,
因為祂就是我們的本質,
也是自然萬物的本質。
 
只是身在這瘋狂的現代人類社會裡,
我們被引導去相信自己的不值得,
不值得欣欣向榮的綻放,
所以把自己用水泥和有毒物質
掩蓋起來。
 
然而我們最原初的知曉
就在內在呼吸著,
等待著
向我們展示
如何進入生命,
如何像一顆種子,
長成生命之藥。
 
讓我們
對自己好一點,
一步一步、
一個呼吸一個呼吸
慢慢的
 
帶著愛來自我聆聽。
 
透過這種方式
來找到移除水泥的方法,
用堆肥來取代有毒物質,
讓自己知道
你就在這裡,
你選擇消融仇恨,
 
你選擇以一種新的方式
來靠近自己,
來接住自己。

The pain of being unloved, not seen and unheard by our very own selves, echoes through our cells.

Some of us keep the pain in our hearts.
While others store it in their bones, their soul or flesh.
While some carry it in all these places.

This desire to be known and loved by our own heart for all that we are, when unmet, can crumble the bones, irritate the skin, numb the heart and sadden the soul.

Our bodies were not meant to carry something so destructive; the hatred of our own selves.

Luckily the medicine we need is deep inside, under the distorted language and harmful beliefs, waiting to be touched, felt and reignited; the pull to grow well, to choose life and bloom.

It was always there, for it is what we are, what all of nature is.
We just learnt along the way, in this crazy modern human world, that we didn’t deserve to thrive, so covered it up under concrete and poison.

Yet there it is, our original knowing, breathing within, waiting to show you how to join life, how to become like a seed, a medicine plant.

Give yourself kindness one breath, one step at a time.
Find how to pull away the concrete by committing to listening openly and with care.
Swap the poison for compost, letting yourself know, that you are there, that you are choosing to spit out the hatred and to instead, approach how to hold yourself in a new way.

(word by Brigit Anna McNeill)

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